the lead singer of chiodos is a douche bag

but being guestlisted was nice

The thought of living in NYC makes me feel
nervous
excited
&
complete.

Kind of like the way adderall makes me feel.

I have no motivation.
For anything.

I hate when I go through these phases.
I don't want to go out anymore.
I don't like partying all that much.
I just like hanging in small groups.
It's weird.

I'm ready to graduate, but I have a whole year.
I'm tired of being a teenager.

I love you.
And I love you.
Also I love you.
As well I love you.
Can't forget that I love you too.



I don't even have to put names.
These five should just know it.

I'm sooo grounded.

Fucking shit.

Rescue me?

please.

I guess I expect too much.

Prom tomorrow. Bleh.

<3

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Today and last night has just been tons of smiles.

Amy and I taped Caesa opera style...muahha. Funny shit.

Dustin, John, and Kevin woke Ava, Amy and I up this morning by seranading us with a song they wrote about us. So incredibly sweet.

More good times to come.

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School is really starting to kill me. I really want my ear pierced, but I am just doubting that I'll get all A's. Jeez, I need to try harder.

I need a job as well. Damnit. Not that I actually have time for one. I'm going to Florida June 4 for a week. Then leave for Bonaire June 17th for a week. Then New York for a week in July. At least I won't be stuck in Corydon.

Dum, dum, dum..it seems like I'm always waiting.

I wish I could sing. I love hearing people who can really sing.

This is random and pointless. Sorry to waste your time.

<3 sarah

I think I'm getting sick. I feel all shaky and jumbled. It's not fun.

Sin City was a good movie. I enjoyed it. Amy and I are just so furtive. We bought tickets to Hitch and just walked into Sin City instead. The guys working there were confused.

So it's decided that I'm going to prom. Megan insists that I go, and I can't say no to Megan.

                           I've got my fingers crossed. I need this.

<3 sarah

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California was absolutely beautiful. I can't even believe I thought I would be dissappointed. People always say California is the best place in the world, it's so beautiful, etc. And the truth is that it really is. I fell in love. It was almost too good to be a real place. I stood on this cliff looking out at the ocean and I just felt at peace. I felt like I was at home. We also visited California Lutheran which is located on Olsen Ave! How ironic, since I love MK. The campus was gorgeous. There were palm trees and a little stream that ran through the campus. I want to go there so bad. The beach is 10 miles away! Ah, so close. It has totally inspired me to work a little harder in school. At least for this week. hehe..

OMG, the Fall Out Boy concert was even better than I expected. It was the perfect way to end our vacation. Ava and I paid $7 for these nasty salads so we could be in the VIP line and get in 15 minutes early. So worth it. We got front row, and I sang along to every song. Except for the new one I didn't know. I love going to concerts. It makes the music so much better. I feel like they really mean the lyrics. During my favorite song(Chicago is so two years ago) I looked over at Ava and it was like every stupid thing we fought about over the week just dissappeared. I knew that there was no other place we would have rather been. She totally gets me. Wow, I sound like I'm in love with you Ava. Haha. Don't worry everyone, we decided we could never date. We argue too much. I think it mite just be that we both aren't morning people. I'm like mega bitch 500 in the morning. LOL. Sorry!!

So we didn't meet any outstanding boys. Spring break is supposed to be about meeting fun boys, but all we met was Kyle(who was nothing special) and Garet( who was just the neighborhood drug dealer..haha..you girls want some cocaine *whips out cocaine at the bus station*..*uncomfortable giggles*...we're good). As the week started ending Ava started talking about getting excited to see Zach and coming home, and it made me realize I had nothing to come home to. I don't have a boyfriend. I don't have anything at school. Corydon is dead to me. Yeah, I have my friends and my guys, but Ava is in love. And she better not deny it. She doesn't even know who lucky she is! I envy her so much for having someone like that. Lucky bitch. So coming home to Corydon sucked. But Zach picked us up at the airport and we met John, Dustin, and Ross(?) at Waffle House. Forgot how much I missed those guys. They always make me smile.

<3 sarah